rhionnach | (no subject)

I've just spent some time going through some of the stuff I brought from my parents' house. Most of it is simply photos, I managed to save very little else as I had some thought that I would be able to get mementos etc from the house after the will was sorted out (at the very least). Well, I was wrong and so all I really have are the photos I was able to find before the Evil Bitch changed the locks and subsequently emptied and sold the house.

It was something I had been putting off doing as I knew it would upset me to see old photos of family members from several generations, to look at photos and realise that of all the people in the photo I am the only one left. I found old holiday snaps, of myself and my parents before my sister was born, then photos including my sister, and then photos of my parents on some of their cruises and other holidays to far flung locations. I had indescribable feelings on opening up a box with large portrait photos of my parent from only a few years ago and looking once more into their eyes.

I need to not dwell on the past but I think I am entitled to being a bit upset today.

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Don't let the bastards... get you down.

There may or may not be 'karma'. There may or may not be 'judgement'.

But some people have heads you wouldn't want to step in on your way to clean a cess-pit...

And they live in them, 24/7, 365 days a year, all their lives...

You have a right to your grief, and a right to grieving.

Living in the past isn't the same as acknowledging it. Easier said than done, I know!

It's absolutely fine to as you say be entitled to feeling upset. I don't think you're dwelling or reliving, perhaps reflecting and experiencing a resurfacing of old emotions?

It's not easy regardless of beliefs when confronted with the realities that you are or in my case will be the only one left. However bright side (such as it is) you get to grips with it eventually.

Strength.